Conversations

I had a bit of a relapse yesterday, but then I thought, that's too easy of a way.
Harming yourself just to feel alive or better.
Per advice from a friend, I will be putting duct tape over my blades.
I can't let myself go back to that. Not after so much progress.
But the thing that is really going to make me stop is what a friend said to me.
The conversation goes as this-

Her: I know it's hard, but you don't want to keep doing this, it doesn't help anything and you're ruining the beautiful canvas that is your body.

Me: I don't like my body, so ruining it doesn't matter much to me.

Her: It matters to me now

I don't think I've ever been told that. I don't think I have ever considered that someone would think that. So, for her I won't continue. I hate disappointing, and I really hope I never disappoint her.
(photo not mine, cr to owner)